Still going....

It seems pregnancy means I have been a major slacker when it comes to my blog!

My last post described the scan I had almost a ftn ago. Since then we returned to the FS for a scan last Thursday. My FS was able to measure the embryo at 7 weeks 1 day, which means we picked up a day since the scan the week before. We were also able to hear the heartbeat this time with the Doppler. It sounded so cool. We also got another couple of pics to take home.

Towards the end of the scan my FS said that he saw something else..............I was like 'Here it is! Its the 2nd embryo we are meant to have and it was hiding in the first scan!' I said to him 'Oh oh that doesn't sound good!'

Anyways he saw what he thought was a second embryo, yolk and sac, with no heartbeat, somewhere other than my uterus! Scary to say the least. He said that if it was, which he wasn't sure of, at least it didn't have a heartbeat and hopefully it would deteriorate on its own and not cause any dramas. However understandably he referred me for an urgent scan with an obstetrician in his building for later that day.

The obstetrician had a much more high-tech ultrasound and heaps better set up. They did the internal scan and looked at every inch of my lower abdomen. They checked out embie and measured it again. This time measuring at 7 weeks 3 days, which is only 2 days off where I should be if you go by my LMP rather then when I probably ovulated in my cycle. I will always remember the technician saying that it was a 'fantastic looking foetus.' She probably says that to everyone but I tell myself that now when I have a weird pain, or spot of pink etc.

After looking at embie they measured each of my ovaries. Determining that the right one was double the size it should be and the left was larger than it should be - but not as close to double. They advised I had a cyst on one ovary and two follies on the other one. They also showed us all of the free fluid I had floating around in there. From this we determined that my hyperstim from two months ago had probably flared up again due to the pregnancy hormones which explains the conditions of the ovaries and the free fluid. It also explains my baby belly when I shouldn't have one yet - I'm actually losing weight, not gaining it! So what my FS saw was most likely the cyst on my ovary.

So anyways as of today I am 8 weeks 3 days pregnant and counting my blessings every second of every day. I cannot for the life of me believe that I've gotten this far and still think it will all be taken away from me at any second. I think this has definitely curbed my excitement about the pregnancy as for some strange reason I must think that if I don't get excited or show too much happiness about being pregnant, if it all gets taken away from me it won't be as hard! I know that's not true!

I love this lil embie and want it to stay and I beg with whoever is listening every day that i want it to stay and be the one that makes us a family.

Symptoms wise I feel 'off' at various times throughout the day - I can't really predict when or if. I have lil lower back niggles. I pee more regularly. Can never predict what I feel like eating or when. Sometimes at dinner time I'll be so hungry I eat too much and feel over full, and other times I'll barely eat more than a few mouthfuls. I have constipation which is probably a result of not just the pregnancy but also that lovely side effect of hyperstim...........rrrrrggggggggggghhh. So for the last week or so I've incorporated a glass of pear juice at dinner time, and fresh fruit each day for lunch. I'll also snack on dried apricots. I've totally gone off coffee, and chocolate, and some other normal things I was eating before I was pregnant like sultana's and crackers.

I will try and post again in the next couple of days. Wish I had a scan coming up soon. 12 weeks is way to long to have to wait!